finding someone

i was out with my college friend last wednesday and we got to talk about finding someone. he has been set up by another friend of his on a blind date. he said he was getting tired of those kinds of dates since they normally don't work. at least not for him.

i have never gone on a blind date because one, i have this fear of seeing disappointment in the other person's eyes and two, there is so much pressure when you're on a blind date. unless the person who set you up was asked to, normally that person would have seen something common between the two of you (hopefully, something more than being single) or something that would make him/her think that you would click. it's kind of daunting to think of the expectations when you're set up on a blind date. you're supposed to hit it off, have fun, fall in love and live happily ever after. but what if you don't?

i guess one of the biffest problems that i have with these kinds of dates is that i am not very good in doing "small talk". i listen. that is normally my role in these kinds of conversations. sure, i could hold my own for about 5-10 minutes. but after talking about work or the weather or how you're connected, that's probably it for me. of course it's different when i am with friends. but then again, you're not with friends when you're in a blind date.

my friend also said one thing that stuck with me. he said that he wanted someone that he could be bored with. at first, i was weirded out. why in hell would you want to be bored with someone? don't you go out with someone to have fun? he then explained that it was easy to be with another person when you're having fun and doing exciting things. however, that is not what happens everyday. he said he wants someone who he could just habg out and do simple stuff with (like cook dinner for her instead of eating out). and i agree. life isn't always fun and exciting. it would be great to find someone who knows how to enjoy and have fun but would still be happy with you during the boring times.

thinking of the future

a lot people are leaving and moving on with their lives. my college barkada are scattered all around the world --- bahrain, austria, new zealand and the u.s. officemates have resigned and moved to singapore and australia.

i once thought of leaving the country but it hasn't been for a while now. during my first project in my current company (which was almost 9 years ago), i got a chance to travel to sydney and actually fell in love with australia. it was the only country that i thought that i could leave the philippines for. after all this time, i am beginning to consider this again.

i've been to a lot of countries... and for that, i will always be grateful to my company. because of my work, i got to go to a lot of places and experienced a lot of things. and it has given me a better perspective of the world and has made me a more independent person.

i always thought that i would be staying here in the philippines. i love it here. and migrating to another country was not something i was considering. however, where i am in my life now is opening this idea once again. i will be in my mid-30s soon and i need to consider all aspects of my life. and i sometimes feel that some of the dreams that i have for myself might only be realized in another country. and it's not money, mind you. i've never been one to make money a priority in my life. i'd like to have more of it, sure. but it's not something that drives my decisions.

i've talked this through with friends, colleagues and workmates. hopefully, things will turn out well. *fingers crossed*