looking at me through somebody's eyes

rose's account of an intuitive reading done to me by bong, last friday ...

"He sensed a slight heaviness somewhere near her heart, like hardened tears..."

[Hi. This is an unsolicited introduction to Kat Marcos' intuitive reading by the famed empath - Bong, held last May 21st 2004 at Runes along Tomas Morato Avenue. I was the official scribe and all I can say is every word as far as I have known Kat, has a resounding affirmation to the spiritual journey Kat is in. Those in italics were questions asked by Kat to Bong, very brave, straightforward, unapologizing questions. It also reinforced my unwavering admiration to the guy who never judges the questions, and answers them like they hold the secret to the universe. In between, I may write commentaries, they may be unwelcome, but so what chocnut, scribes have that priviledge! You may find that the narration below contains haunting, beautiful, fitting words. These are Bong's words. The answers are [almost] exactly what he said (I just added particles, pronouns and conjunctions. huuuwaatttt? ako pa wrong grammar galore, haha!). Kat's energy is read via runes and hands (not palmistry ha? This one is by holding the hands and sensing the energy). Some ramblings may be lost, my morning person body clock and my slow reflexes in transcribing were the obvious cause. Here goes na.

It began when Bong held Kat's hands with no questions from her yet, and started reading her energy. As from my past life reading, the first words may have the most impact, in this case, probably the major state of the soul.]

He sensed a slight heaviness somewhere near her heart, like hardened tears that needs to be exhaled. It is like: if you can imagine small droplets, not stones but like sugar when they got wet and then later dried. He hesitated, looking for words then he said that she can melt this by giving love to herself. He said this will manifest and will be made clear from Kat's questions later. He turned to Kat's perception (the energy around the eyes) and he saw drowsiness, kind of half awake, half asleep ("bangag sa antok") state. There's a kind of weariness that Bong could not explain, could not point why, or of what kind. The weariness is not physical, and there's weariness also in the hands.

[Sing to the indigo girls: "when you learn to love yourself, you will dissolve all the stones that are cast. you will learn to burn the icing sky, to melt the waxen mask."]

Will I be successful in my career? (via runes)
Of course, Kat will be successful in her job, there will be creating new worlds with her energy. There will be breakthroughs, if she can just stay focused and stay grounded. There's a big, big potential for a sense of fulfillment!

[But who doubted this? Si Kat lang because she asked, haha! To us, damn it, it's a given!]

Will I find Mr. Right? (via runes and hands)
He said that Kat is a thinking energy and to remember to not forget the lessons from the recent past. There's a male figure hovering in her area, the male is the first to see her the first to fall for her but there's a period of cluelessness abound her at first.. This would be unexpected and a big adjustment on Kat's side. For now, ayon ke Bong, relax muna.

[Yes, ang nagpauso ng tanong na to ay si Pogie: Will I find Mr. Right? For someone as loving as Kat, I think it's a potentially great romance. We'll wait and root from the sidelines.]

There will be possible problems in the future. Among family, there will be discussions, fights, something about resources, liquifying assets [kinda sleepy here na so I didn't hear much!]. There's much to iron out, certain areas in your family, some struggle and there will be a realization on what values really matter.

Why am I insecure? (via hands)
Bong sees an image of Kat, a chubby 4 years old, carrying a doll, and kat's tearing out the hair of the doll.

[I think Bong intended not to have an interpretation for this one. For reflection =)]

He said that Kat's self-image is far from what people see. He added, "Sana you have the capacity to see yourself sa mata ng iba. "

[Exclamation point: Sana you have the capacity to see yourself sa mata ng iba. =). True Kat, because it will be beauty that you'll see! ]

The thing is, said Bong, to change the thought matters, to better the self-image. "Easier said than done?" asked he. We smiled.

Kat said she thinks too much according to others and that she also said she's a thinker more than a 'feeler'. This was affirmed by Bong and he added that when you are a thinker you will not be affected by agitations but she still has to develop the heart, Kat has to feel and to assert what she feels.

[You are your most ethereal when you are your most vulnerable =). So go out and feel Kat! Break down the caution guards, feel! Kat actually is an emotional person, she's the first to cry about almost anything - my golly goose, she cried while our ex-boss who was not very fair to us was in a hot seat. While each one of us were stating our complaints in a supposedly formal kind of way, kat was sobbing while she was stating hers. Super cry! Yes that emotional. She even cries in movies. Endearing no? But as she said on our way home, every time she feels, she checks herself whether it’s okay to feel that way. She checks if there's any consequence - she does not allow her emotions to rule her. But I maintain, break down the caution guards! Haha! Wala lang. Just allow yourself to be tired, to be happy, to enjoy what you've labored, to acknowledge the hurt when you're hurt, because aren't these allowances and acknowledgements about respect for one self? :) Some people can articulate it better [insert link] :). You deserve good things Kat, happiness, perfection, the works (!) and you deserve it each moment and each day. I know, I know, loving oneself is the hardest thing to do, but it's the greatest love of all. Whitney Houston, sing it with us!]

Will I be happy? (via hands)
It is to go into self. To keep still. If you do this...[he shakes his head, smiling], once you've done this....everything will....[bong smiled and remained silent].

Will I find my soulmate? (drumroll, via hands and runes)
"You've seen him. You're going now from a period of growth. Even if you don't meet in this lifetime, you have found ways to meet in different planes, be it in your dreams or in higher level of consciousness. You both are trying to work out what needs to be, because when you meet in BODY (physical world), you're in your best selves to help and love each other.

Have I ever been in love?
Bong: Pick a card. [Kat picks a card. Bong looks closely and looks at Kat]. Your soul's waiting.

[Kat remarked later in the cab, that funny the fact that she asked if she had ever been in love may have already answered her question. The fact that she asked :)]

[It ends here, but of course the reflection shouldn't. It's a beautiful reading.]