simmering down

ok, so i've cooled down a bit. no, make that a lot. a couple of hours with pogs and rose would do that to anybody. yes, pogs is back with a load of stories from his escapades in the US, especially in san francisco. i'm not sure if you want to ask what those are but if you're with a strong heart, then go ahead and be entertained.

in contrast to someone who pisses me off, there's also someone who makes me smile. before any of my friends start again with the "inlab si kat!" statements and asking me for stories and details that i couldn't come up with because there are none, allow me to say that i have no romantic feelings towards this person. he's simply nice. someone you'd like for a kid brother, i guess. that's the closest description i have for him. and though we don't talk much, all i have are nice adjectives for the nice person that he is.

or maybe that's it. we haven't spent that much time together for me to see the bad side of him. but this is just the cynical me. the too-much-thinking me. for now, i'm happy with the thoughts i have.

so to rose, pogs and him (let's include ice monster as well), thanks for cooling me down. at least for now.

ranting

i cringe every time you want to talk to me. my blood boils every time i hear your this-is-the-way-you're-supposed-to-do-it lecture. and you have the guts to actually think we're friends. no, we're friggin' not! and i don't even know where you got that stupid idea! talking to you doesn't mean we are!

get off my back!

rewind

sometimes, you say something and the world suddenly changes. then you want to take it all back, hoping to make things as they were before. but you know you're helpless. and the world keeps on changing. all you could do is sit and watch as it happens, with the hope that one day things will be better.

gary g.

after dinner with rose in chubby china, i was walking towards landmark when my feet took me to music one. i haven't bought a cd for this payday yet and so i went through the racks, hoping to see something nice. i remembered seeing blue's mtv a few days ago and so i took their one love cd off the rack. i went to the opm area to check if janno gibbs' cd was already there and though his album, seven was still not available, there was another album that had his new hits.

and then i saw it. gary granada's cd.



so, goodbye janno and blue... maybe next month.

i have been a fan of gary granada's songs since i first heard bahay. i remember that was during our history class in first year high school. i was so taken by the song --- its simplicity, its message and the awareness that it brought. then ate tetet came home one day with a tape (yes, a cassette tape) of gary granada live! we spent nights listening to it and that was the first time i fell in love with kapag sinabi ko sa iyo. and if you were fortunate enough to have watched the musical lean (based on the life story of student activist lean alejandro), the songs were written by gary granada as well! when i was in japan, i was able to exchange emails with gary granada through his website. he is actually a very good writer, not just of songs but of essays as well. he manages to inject humor even in his discussions of national issues.

yes, i am admittedly, a big fan of gary granada... a very talented but under-rated songwriter and singer. a true legend in the filipino music genre indeed.

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bahay

...sa init ng tabla't karton sila doo'y nakakulong
sa lilim ng yerong kalawang at sira-sirang gulong
pinagtagpi-tagping basura, pinatungan ng bato
hindi ko maintindihan bakit ang tawag sa ganito ay bahay...

...baka naman isang araw kayo doon ay maligaw
mahipo nyo at marinig at maamoy at matanaw
hindi ako nangungutya, kayo na rin ang magpasya
sa palagay ninyo kaya ito sa mata ng Maykapal ay bahay...

kung ayaw mo na sa akin

... kung ayaw mo na sa akin wala akong magagawa
hindi mo na kakailanganing magdadalawang salita
kung ayaw mo na sa akin sabihin lang ang totoo
para miminsanan na lang din luluha ang puso ko...

... kung ayaw mo na sa akin masakit man ang totoo
kung ayaw mo na sa akin, ayoko na rin sa 'yo!

hanggang kailan, hanggang saan

... hangga't buo pa ang daigdig at puso ko ay may pintig
hangg't mayrong saysay ang kasaysayan
ang tagginaw at tagtuyot, ang tagpanglaw at taglungkot
sa piling mo'y aking makakayanan...

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these are just fractions of the whole album that are really really worth listening to. and if, in case, you do see a cd version of gary granada live! please please do tell me.

it's a girl!

before shocked comments get posted here, i am not pregnant. ate tetet is! :) we are so excited!!! she'll be giving birth some time in october and she recently confirmed that they'll be having a baby girl. and so after much fuss about franco, our darling baby boy and my precious godson, we'll sure be looking forward to our coming darling baby girl.

any suggestions for names? :)

smiling

it's great when you're in love, 'no? not even in love... even just "in like". moreso when it's mutual. you have a smile on your face especially during those instances when you think of that someone special and the times you've spent together.

if i could just pat myself on the back...

i just arrived home from the friday night videoke gimmick of our team. it was a normal fun night with friends... with one exception... i drove to makati! :)

it might be a very small thing for most people, especially to my friends who drive long distances. but this is a big big achievement for me and i am sooo proud of myself! it was actually fun to drive along the expressway, breezing through since there was no traffic. (what would you expect at 2 am?!?).

i still need miles and miles of driving before i can consider myself a capable and experienced driver. but it will come. right now, let me just bask on my own personal achievement. :)

i thought about you today

it's been a while since that happened. and it's all because of a song. i blame patti austin. it made me reminisce. good things, by the way. i guess i'm missing you a bit. :)