dream, believe, survive

meron akong crush. more of a i-am-a-star-struck-fan crush rather than a you-make-my-heart-flutter-i-might-be-in-love crush. why? basically because he's married. hehehe! and why am i starstruck aside from the fact that he's gorgeous? he's the super-duper expert in his field and he knows more about it than any other person in the company --- well, as far as i know. plus, he's very generous in giving his time and sharing his knowledge with all of us, the regular aliping sagigilids of the SAP world. he's very much living to the hype he's creating all around the world, at least in our world. i guess that's what happens when you work with a person without ever seeing him and all you have is a voice, a couple of emails, loads of sametimes and a million stories from all the other people who have worked with him before.

i've actually told friends that i was, and still is, starstruck (hence, the title)with the people who i see here. people whose names i just see in the teamspace. people who i know are the very experts in their respective fields. and then all of a sudden you see them all here. wow. i am not sure, though, if this is a concept foreign to some people. might be a little too geeky. hehehe!

it's snowing!

the first snowfall in cincinnati... winter is coming!

a mighty nice evening

before i even came here to cincinnati, ate franee (one of ate tetet's long time kabarkadas) and i already planned on seeing each other. ate franee has been working here for a few years now and i was looking forward to seeing her --- a familiar face in a sea of strangers in a foreign land. little did i know that we were in different offices so seeing each other was not as easy as i thought it would be.

last thursday, we finally go to see each other. ate franee drove from downtown cincinnati to our area, about a 40 minute drive. we were so happy to see each other we literally jumped up and down. soon after, we were telling each other stories --- from our high school years and even long after that. when my friends arrived, we started off towards ate franee's house. i must say, it's far off from what we have. it's about 5 times bigger and it really feels like home. well, considering that ate franee has been here for a long time, i guess it's not much of a surprise. after the grand tour of the house, we went to mount adams to eat at teak, a thai restaurant. the food was great and the stories just kept on rolling, making it a great evening. with ate franee paying for the meal, it was even made better! hehehe!



we went to a church near the restaurant after dinner to take some pictures. well, roman, that is. aside from the church, the area had a nice view of the cincinnati skyline. and eventhough we were shivering from the cold, we were all smiles when it was time to take our pictures.

as they always say, time flies when you're having fun. and it was so true this time. too soon, it was time to go home and say our goodbyes.

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another note: ate franee lent me her gilmore girls dvd collection --- all four seasons! i am soooo excited! :)

impulse decision

i am not known to be an impulsive person. most people actually know me as a person who thinks too much. but today i did something that took me (literally) 10 minutes to decide on.

i am hoping that i did make the right decision. let's wait and see.

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happy happy birthday to my dear cousin, roy. :)

i have a secret

i am a stalker. hahahaha! :) a harmless one, that is.

an aunt once again

it's been quite a while since this happened but it's still worth a post.

I AM A PROUD AUNT OF A BEAUTIFUL BABY GIRL --- SOFIA BEATRICE MARCOS ALBIS!!!



i just received the pictures from my brother-in-law and i have to say, she is soooo cute! she has taken after her aunt. hahaha! she was born last october 12, a few days after i left for the US. i feel a bit sad that i couldn't see her because i am halfway around the world. but this is definitely something that has kept me looking forward to coming home on christmas!

my precious godson has taken up his role as the loving kuya. they're so adorable together!



i wish i could give them hugs and kisses that could travel overseas.

out here on my own

here i am again, feeling as though i am left to fend off for myself. it's not that i am on the other side of the world, without my family with me. it's the feeling i get when it seems that i am just going along for the ride.

like, "sige na nga, isama na lang natin siya. andyan kasi siya eh." not, "tara, isama natin siya". in filipino terms, sabit lang.

it's a pitiful feeling and i hate it. i don't want to say anything out loud simply because i don't want to draw any attention to it. i don't want to sound as if i want attention. i don't. i just want to feel that i belong.

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...until the morning sun appears
making light of all my fears
i dry the tears
i've never shown
out here on my own...

- out here on my own (ost fame), irene cara