*sigh*

an old song that audrey asked me to listen to and it just struck a chord.

sometimes a love goes wrong
carrie lucas

i hate to say i'm leaving you
i wish to God that i could stay
things ain't right between us
not the way that used to be
the love we thought would last forever and a day
cannot be

cause sometimes a love goes wrong
sometimes a heart can fear love
sometimes a love goes wrong
just when you think you got it
sometimes a love goes wrong
sometimes a heart can fear love
sometimes a love goes wrong
just when you think you got it
look and love is gone

why did the feelings have to change
why couldn't it remain the same
where's the joy and laughter
and all the things that we once knew
i know that it´s so hard believin'
that we're through but it's true

cause sometimes a love goes wrong
sometimes a heart can fear love
sometimes a love goes wrong
just when you think you got it
look and love is gone

oh when a love is through
there ain't nothin' that you can do
when love comes along
look around it's gone
when love is gone you feel you can't go on
and the love you have found look around and it's gone
oh, what am i gonna do?

it's my turn

i think i've started one before but never really got to asking people to put in their perspective. so what's the point, right? so here i am, doing it again and joining the bandwagon, if you want to call it that. tell me what you think of me via my johari window. i promise i won't take it against you, as long as you're honest. :)

musings on the way home

it's been a long journey but i have finally reached the end.

it's amazing how what other people say can influence the way you think and how you perceive things. you sometimes end up creating an image in your head that's opposite from what's true and so detached from reality. but since it's fed into your system constantly, this illusion starts to become your reality. it is a hard battle to fight against it, especially if you'd rather stay in your own made-up world, where everything goes your way. but life has an interesting sense of humor. in an instant, your dream bubble bursts and you're thrown back to the reality the rest of the world knows. you sigh with disappointment but then it's also a relief when you realize soon afterwards that although you've been bruised, you escape in one piece. and then you know that reality is not so bad after all.

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oh, and by the way, i am celebrating my fourth year in my current company. wooohooo!!! :) it's the longest i've ever stayed in a company and i am glad that it's with this one. what's more amazing is that i am actually looking forward to getting my "loyalty award" next year, very much the opposite of what we felt towards our previous company. happy 4th year anniversary to me! :)

another goodbye

after a long while, i finally got to see a friend today. we chat once in a while via our office instant messenger but since he was far away on assignment (and so was i), we never got to spend any time together. unfortunately, when he came home, he already resigned from the company.

i was in shock.

actually, matagal na niyang sinabi sa akin na ayaw na niyang bumalik sa office sa pinas. i just didn't realize it would be this soon.

i gave him a hug when i finally saw him. he's probably one of the very few guy friends i could give a hug to. i also hugged his wife even though it was the first time we've actually met. with all his stories, i just felt like we were also friends. i was talking excitedly, telling him that i was happy for his good fortune. i knew he deserved it and i knew he would be happier there than he is here. i was happy and excited for him because i knew that his dreams can take place in that new company. but after we said goodbye and i returned to my seat, i felt lonely. i was saddened by the fact that we would not see each other at work, not as much as we used to. i was sad because he is my friend and he left. i wanted to cry but i didn't.

we did promise to keep in touch, promised not to forget each other and to remain friends. that's all i can ask for.