i normally don't listen to the radio when i am driving home as my ipod is the one that is usually keeping me company. today, however, i did not feel the urge to open my ipod. i thought some silence will do me good. at one point, however, i thought of opening my radio. and this is the first song that played...

almost lover

you fingertips against my skin
the palm trees swaying in the wind
images

you sang me spanish lullabies
the sweetest sadness in your eyes
clever trick

i never want to see you unhappy
i thought you'd want the same for me

goodbye, my almost lover
goodbye, my hopeless dream
i'm trying not to think about you
can't you just let me be?
so long, my luckless romance
my back is turned on you
i should've known you'd bring me heartache
almost lovers always do

we walked along a crowded street
you took my hand and danced with me
images

and when you left you kissed my lips
you told me you'd never ever forget these images, no

i never want to see you unhappy
i thought you'd want the same for me

goodbye, my almost lover
goodbye, my hopeless dream
i'm trying not to think about you
can't you just let me be?
so long, my luckless romance
my back is turned on you
i should've known you'd bring me heartache
almost lovers always do

i cannot go to the ocean
i cannot drive the streets at night
i cannot wake up in the morning
without you on my mind
so you're gone and i'm haunted
and i bet you are just fine
did i make it that easy for you
to walk right in and out of my life?

goodbye, my almost lover
goodbye, my hopeless dream
i'm trying not to think about you
can't you just let me be?
so long, my luckless romance
my back is turned on you
i should've known you'd bring me heartache
almost lovers always do

a prayer answered

i was still not feeling like my usual self when i thought of reading today's gospel.

matthew 7, 7-12

ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. for everyone who asks, receives; and the one who seeks, finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened. which one of you would hand his son a stone when he asks for a loaf of bread, or a snake when he asks for a fish? if you then, who are wicked, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your heavenly Father give good things to those who ask him. do to others whatever you would have them do to you. this is the law and the prophets.

ang galing talaga ni Lord! saktong sakto!

the candle burned out

i think i may have been working too hard.

i had a minor breakdown today. i was feeling the pressure of having to finish the RFP that we needed to submit, the setups that i needed to finish for an initiative that i didn't want to get involved in and the requirements we needed to have our changes moved to production. i tried to look for a room to go to just to have a break but i could not find one. i went back to my seat and put my head on my desk. i was just feeling soooo tired. then someone patted my back asking if i was ok. and that's when i started to cry. i think all the stress and pressure finally caught up with me. i was hoping i could stop crying and pretend that nothing bad happened but the tears just kept on coming. i went to the ladies room to release all the tension.

darn. this is not how i wanted things to go. i think i need to rethink my priorities.

q-pd-s

today was supposed to be a fun night but it didn't turn out that way. it's sad.

on another note, i'd like to thank all my friends who showed their full and unwavering support these past few days:

aaron, bj, ronram, ronald, tans - my pd supporters
sol, sarah, maj - my coffee sponsors who did not just give coffee this time
eric and ryann - up to the last minute!
christa, krizzie, rolan, aren, bourbon - mga imports ko!

and most especially

aj, auds and alice - ang mga nangikil, nagmakaawa at nagpilit sa mga tao na iboto kami

salamat, salamat, salamat... ibang level ang suporta niyo, wala akong masabi. sobrang touched ako. it did not only provide a lot of entertainment (and funds) but it really showed me how i could depend on you, even in the smallest of things.

i love you all!

oh, and i loved the flowers, by the way. :)