an answer

one of my favorite books is illusions: the adventures of a reluctant messiah by richard bach.

an excerpt:

Once there lived a village of creatures along the bottom of a great crystal river.

The current of the river swept silently over them all - young and old, rich and poor, good and evil, the current going its own way, knowing only its own crystal self.

Each creature in its own manner clung tightly to the twigs and rocks at the river bottom, for clinging was their way of life, and resisting the current what each had learned from birth.

But one creature said at last, 'I am tired of clinging. Though I cannot see it with my eyes, I trust that the current knows where it is going. I shall let go, and let it take me where it will. Clinging, I shall die of boredom.'

The other creatures laughed and said, 'Fool! Let go, and that current you worship will throw you tumbled and smashed across the rocks, and you shall die quicker than boredom!'

But the one heeded them not, and taking a breath did let go, and at once was tumbled and smashed by the current across the rocks.

Yet in time, as the creature refused to cling again, the current lifted him free from the bottom, and he was bruised and hurt no more.

And the creatures downstream, to whom he was a stranger, cried, 'See a miracle! A creature like ourselves, yet he flies! See the Messiah, come to save us all!'

And the one carried in the current said, 'I am no more Messiah than you. The river delights to lift us free, if only we dare let go. Our true work is this voyage, this adventure.'

But they cried the more, 'Saviour!' all the while clinging to the rocks, and when they looked again he was gone, and they were left alone making legends of a Saviour.

my fascination for richard bach's writings actually began when i read jonathan livingston seagull, a book that is simply written but profound at the same time. anyway, back to illusions --- i remember a part saying that any book could show you an answer to your question and guide you. i found out it was true... not through a book but through a song.

i was lying in my bed, listening to my old recorded md's and i chose something from whitney houston (not sure what album that is). and this song struck me and made me realize that this is the answer to all my uncertainties the past few days:

if you need a little change of heart
forget this fear and frustration
'cause love will always play the greater part
when your battles wear you down,
here's my advice...

when you're feeling down and out
and you got troubles on your mind
love will save the day
when your feeling full of doubts
and fear has got you in a bind
love will save the day
when your world's falling apart
all you have to do is say a pray'r
love will save the day
there's an answer in your heart
so let the light shine on my dear
love will save the day