nothing less than being swept off my feet

we were sitting in the pantry talking idly, waiting for 5 pm to come. sol then asked me, if i were a guy, who i would pick from the girls in our floor to go out with. i really had a hard time answering the question. then i was asked to pick from the guys who i wanted to go out with. now, that is a question i wouldn't be caught dead answering. we were still discussing when jill came into the pantry. we didn't spare her and asked her the same questions. she didn't say a name but just told us that it really depends on the kind of guy it is. some guys are older and want to settle down, therefore picking someone who is more mature and ready for commitment. some guys may not be the marrying type so they may opt to choose someone who is carefree and is not yet into serious relationships.

then jill asked the question, "which would you choose, someone who you love more or someone who loves you more?"

i have heard a lot of variations to this question before. one of which is a line of a song, "are you gonna stay with the one who loves you or are you coming back to the one you love?" now, this is a question that i did not even need to think before answering.

i would want someone who would love me more but then again, knowing myself, i would probably choose the one i love more. someone told me that i was a thinking person more than a feeler. maybe because most of the time, i try to keep my feelings in check. however, i think when it comes to these things, i let my heart rule over my head.

i wouldn't go into the discussion if the heart needs to come before the mind in matters of love. this is a topic that has long been debated and would probably never see a resolution. as for me, i just hope that when it matters most, i would be true to the promise i made to my mom and that is to never settle for someone. i've seen and heard stories of how marriages don't work because of this. not just marriages but relationships as a whole. "siya yung nandiyan, e"... "pwede na siguro siya"... "wala namang iba kasi". it's sad, but it's a decision made by a lot of people just so they would have someone in their life.

i am not saying i would never say the same things. maybe i will. but i hope i don't. a friend once told me, she would still like to be swept off her feet. she was.

i am hoping i would too.