tomorrow, tomorrow

i love you, tomorrow... you're only a day awaaaaay!!!

going home tomorrow for a much needed two week vacation. yahooooooo!!!!

i am in shock

roger federer just lost to andy murray --- 5-7, 4-6.

he's out of the tournament. there's no federer vs. nadal in the finals. somebody please wake me up.

losing doesn't take away anything

we were having lunch today at arloi dee, a thai restaurant in mason when i realized that paradorn srichaphan was in the same restaurant. i was just watching him last night play against roger federer!!!

i was almost certain it was him. none of my teammates knew who he was and they weren't able to watch him last night. my hunch was confirmed when a girl of about 10 or 12 went up to him. so i decided i will to.

we passed by his table as we were leaving the restaurant and i asked him if he was indeed srichaphan (i made sure i said his name correctly -- thai names are so hard to pronounce!!!). when he said yes, i shook his hand and told him that he played a good game last night. i told him i was ushering so i was able to watch him play. after i congratulated him, i went on my way.

my officemate asked me if srichaphan won last night. he didn't. he was up against federer, the no. 1 player in the whole wide world! but i told him that i congratulated him because he played a good game. it was just unfortunate that he had to go against the top seed. it did not take away the fact that he played well. and i just wanted him to know that he did.

we should always tell someone when he/she does a good job or else how would they know?

breaking up

i was surprised to see my sister online at 4 pm yesterday (that was 4 am manila time). little did i know that there was a bigger surprise waiting for me... not a good one, unfortunately. she asked me to go to her blog site and read it from there. she and her boyfriend of four years have just broken up.

truthfully, i did not have any emotional connection with her ex. i don't have any for all of my sisters' exes and current boyfriends as well. the only exception is my brother-in-law because he is now part of the family. sure, i talk to them when they're visiting or on the occasions that they join us for some family celebrations. but other than that, i've always distanced myself.

needless to say, i was sad for my sister. and it saddens me more that i am not there for her. i don't know if she needs me to be there but still, i wanted to be there just in case she did. i told her i don't have any advice to give. this is probably the one area that she has more experience than i do. although by the end of our conversation, i did give her one advice: that it's okay to be angry, it's okay to be sad. and it's okay that people around her see that.

i have no doubt that she'll eventually be okay. she just needs time to grieve, adjust and then move on. the good thing is that they've agreed to be friends. they've started as friends and they're just not willing to let their friendship go.

boston

there's nothing much to say about my trip to boston except that it was short and was really devoted to work. our day started at 8 am and we did not leave the office until past 6 pm. we did go to a lot of nice restaurants to eat --- summer shack, legal seafoods, cantina italiana and ole mexican grill. by the time we were finished with dinner, it was already dark and we could not do any sightseeing anymore. on our last night, however, ximena kindly drove us to harvard.



unfortunately, we did not see much of the campus. i did have my picture taken rubbing the foot of john harvard's statue. ximena told us that everyone that goes to harvard does that and so we did. that leaves me with one other place i had to go to.

the next day, i woke up reaaaaally early (which was a big thing for me) and walked across the bridge to the other side of the river to... yep, MIT.



i remember requesting for an application form, just to check what i needed to get in. well, i needed around 2 million pesos so that ruled out any chances of me attending MIT. anyway, i was taking pictures outside of the engineering and sciences building when i saw someone go in. seeing that there was no security checking if you're a student or not, i decided to go in as well.

i was in awe the moment i went in. i don't know what it was that made me feel this way. probably the prestige that comes with the school, being one of the best schools in the world. it somehow dawned on me that this was just a dream for me, same as when i dreamt of being an olympian. i am not nor was i ever a very technical person. i don't think i could ever be a great engineer or an exceptional programmer. but i am entitled to dream, aren't i? :)

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another good thing about boston is... cheesecake factory!!! they have the best cheesecakes, i swear! the godiva cheesecake is still the clear winner. i also tried the chocolate sundae cheesecake (i'm sure this is not the correct name but it's close) and it was also fantastic! yum yum yum!

self control

each person has an image of herself --- a mixture of good and bad traits, unless you're deluded and you see yourself as perfect. believe me, i've never seen myself as perfect. far from it. although one of the things i believe i am is kind. sure, i have my off days when i get all tempramental and become a big time B-I-T-C-H but most of the time, i think i am a nice person. but has it ever happened to you that you meet someone and for some reason that person sets your blood boiling? i did once when i was in high school. and for the longest time, i haven't felt the urge to put out my devil horns out. that is, until now. aaargh! there are times i have to stop myself from blurting out nasty comments when that person speaks. if i could only raise one eyebrow, i would have done it a million times by now. there are even instances when i'd like nothing more than to wring that person's neck. good thing i can control what i say or do. hopefully, i can do this until i no longer have to deal with that person any more.

oh, Lord, give me strength.