saying goodbye

as of today, it will only be a matter of days until i go back. i couldn't explain how i feel but for sure i would miss this place that i have called home for the past year. most people who have been here might be surprised at the statement i just made. after all, some people find life here boring. they say it's in the middle of nowhere. maybe so. but i have come to love this place, as i have other places i have spent quite some time in.

i'm going to miss living alone. i've shared a bedroom with my siblings ever since i was born, it's a welcome change to have a place of my own. sure, i miss having my family around when i am here but it's also nice to have some alone time. i'll miss the independence that i've experienced here. i've lived for a year in japan and a few months in australia but i felt freer here. maybe because i've never been proficient enough in nihonggo to be confident on my own and make friends outside the office and my mobility in australia was very limited. here, i was free to explore places i wanted to see and talk to people freely, without thinking if what i said made sense. i am going to miss having enough resources at hand to be able to splurge once in a while without thinking if it's going to affect my financial responsibilities. but most of all, i think i am going to miss the people i have spent time with and who became really good friends. it's hard saying goodbye because you know things will never be the same when you're oceans, continents and time zones apart.

i'm going to miss a lot of things when i leave. how i wish i could put everything in a big container and carry it all with me.