new year

malapit na ang bagong taon. ilang oras na lang, 2007 na. isa lang ang new year's resolution ko for 2007: maging masaya. sa tingin ko kasi, sa buhay ko, nag-iintay ako ng mga bagay para makapagpasaya sa akin. either may pupuntahan ako o may gagawin ako o may mangyayari para maging masaya ako. sa araw-araw kasi, parang deadma lang. hindi ako masaya, hindi rin naman malungkot. so sana, ang gusto kong mangyari sa 2007 e maging mas masaya ako sa araw-araw. syempre, hindi naman pwedeng parati akong masaya. pero at least man lang, for the majority of the next year, maging masaya ko.

siguro, kelangan kong maging aware sa mga magagandang nangyayari sa araw-araw ko para maging masaya ako. naisip ko kasi, hindi naman pwedeng parating may mangyaring extraordinary sa buhay ko. kailangan, ako ang humanap ng dahilan para maging masaya. ako pa naman, masyadong nag-iisip. buti sana kung magaganda yung mga pinag-i-iisip ko. e minsan, kapag umandar na ang pagka-praning ko, mas sumasama pa ang loob ko e. kailangan na akong matutong mag-let go sa mga bagay na hindi ko naman mako-control. kung ayaw mo, huwag mo, ika nga.

kailangan ko ring simulang gawin ang mga bagay na gusto ko. or at least, gumawa ng paraan para magawa ko ang mga bagay na gusto ko. hindi lang puro trabaho. hindi lang puro ibang tao. paminsan-minsan, kelangan ko ring isipin ang sarili ko. kelangan kong matutong humindi, hindi payag lang ng payag kung ano ang sinasabi ng iba.

gusto kong mag-travel. sana makapunta ako sa isang lugar hindi lang dahil sa may business trip ako. gusto kong makalibot, makapagbakasyon. gusto ko ring matutong mag-drums. although, hindi ko alam kung hanggang saan ko gagawin ito kasi wala naman akong balak bumili ng drum set so parang sayang lang din. pero gusto ko pa ring matuto. gusto ko ring matutong humarap sa tao ng hindi kinakabahan. kailangan ko ng lakas ng loob, kapal ng mukha. baka shocking sa iba, pero totoo. hindi ko pa alam yung mga ibang bagay na gusto kong gawin pero i'm sure, makakaisip pa ako ng maiidagdag sa listahan ko.

wish ko para sa lahat, maging masaya ang bagong taon. hindi lang sa january 1 kundi sa araw-araw ng bagong taon. syempre naman, para hindi lang ako ang masaya sa darating na taon.

hello, 2007!

no good for me

"i see a home in a quiet place
i see myself in a strong embrace
and i feel protection from the human race
it's not parental

but it's a fantasy, not a reality
and it's good, no, no good for me,
you have no idea

that i'm walking through the clouds
when you're looking at me
i'm feeling like a child
vulnerability
i am shaking like a leaf if you move beside me
and you're all that i see
but it's no good for me..."

- the corrs, talk on corners

forever and a day

it's been four years and four months since two of our dear friends got together. yesterday, rish and vin, finally tied the knot. we've been looking forward to this wedding since i-don't-know-when. ever since we knew of their engagement, we were all waiting for this day to happen.

we were avid spectators from the very beginning. some of us had more time watching it unfold before them while some followed it from the sidelines. needless to say, everyone was cheering for this happy ending. it's actually more of a happy beginning than a happy ending, though.

we were all big fans of this love story. they are proof that true love does not always mean that you say it but that you always show it. never, in the entire time that they were together, did we ever doubt their love for each other. and now they have pledged to love one another for their lifetimes. and maybe beyond.

our boys

when we were going out during friday nights in cincinnati, it's usually me, audrey, carmel and jay together. beyond our core group of four, we usually hang out with guys, much to jay's dismay. we would go out with carmel's friends, andrew, justin, kyle, louis and sarah or hang out with sheryl's group (which is also mostly guys) or maybe have some teammates with us. we usually go clubbing on friday nights --- either at main strauss or at metropolis. by mid-week, we're already excited with the idea of our friday night out.

i've always surrounded myself with girlfriends, from way back high school and then on to college. even when i started working, i still had girlfriends. so being surrounded with guy friends is quite a change for me. it's nice, though. i had a wonderful time with my guy friends. and although i may not spend time with them anymore, the experiences we had together is a huge part of why i enjoyed my stay in cincinnati.

thanks, guys!