he's back

he's skating in the u.s. national short track championships. the love of my life (haha!) is excelling in his sport as always, in spite of not competing last year. he's still on top of his game. i am still frustrated that i could have been able to watch him compete had i stayed in cincinnati (the competition was in cleveland which is just three hours away!).

soon, he'll be competing in dancing with the stars. i've been a fan of the show and i've regularly watched it when i was in the u.s. with him as part of the lineup, i'll make it a point to watch every single episode. how i wish i would be able to vote for him every week as well.

good luck and well wishes to apolo!

*february 24
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apolo won his 8th national title in speed skating. way to go, apolo! good luck in milan!

he's leaving

no, not on a jetplane and not even on a midnight train. he's just leaving the company and the team. and i am sad. we are all sad. and panic-stricken. because he is like the legs that the team stand on. what are we going to do without him? of course, we'll cope. simply because we have to. but still...

*sigh*

we're going to miss him terribly. hugs and well-wishes all the way to cincinnati.

serious musings

as i was going to work this morning, i thought of something... i've always imagined spending my life with someone. i guess being a romantic does that to you. i cherish every giddy feeling... those that i experience first hand and even those that i've felt through the stories of my friends. but after a while, i've trained myself not to dwell too much on the thought of a special someone. at the back of my head, though, i still think that maybe one day, what i want and what God has planned for me will coincide. so here's what i've been thinking... what if waiting for that person is setting myself up for disappointment. see, what if i was just too caught up with the idea of being in love that when someone comes along, i may think that i was in love even if i was not? wouldn't that be a recipe for eventual heartache? maybe that's the reason why i try to think things through before i let my feelings get the best of me. controlled emotions ba. on the other hand, i've been accused of over-analyzing things. i think too much daw. so i guess, it's possible 'no? feeling too much and thinking too much at the same time. hindi kaya sumabog ako nito?

wala lang. it's a scary thought that i might be setting myself up for disaster. this, even before anything has ever happened. i might be getting cynical.

a flower that says a lot

the tiger lily. it means, "i dare you to love me".

so i dare you. :)