still not moving on

they say you have to forgive and forget.

i know i've blogged about this before. but when someone you love betrays you, it's hard to forgive... or even forget. sometimes, i feel it's better not to think about it so that i won't feel the hurt. because everytime i remember what happened, i can't help but shed some tears. even if i am just hearing a song that reminds me of that person, my heart feels like it's being squeezed so tightly. so i push it aside, away from my thoughts, so that i won't have to go through my day feeling so down. sometimes i think that maybe this is all a dream and when i wake up, things will go back to the way they were. but this is the bitter reality, the bitter truth. and as much as i wish that it were not true, it is.