remembering life's lessons

i was talking to eden yesterday through IM (as we usually do) and since we didn't have any new stories to tell, we just started asking questions to each other. an excerpt of our conversation:

eden: pinakamahalagang lesson in life na natutunan mo so far?
kat: na hindi lahat ng tao e pareho ko mag-isip... na hindi lahat e pareho ko ng prinsipyo. at dapat kong tanggapin yun. :)
kat: ikaw, tsong?
eden: forgive and forget
kat: forget?
eden: yep.. iv learned that forgiving is not enough

but it still got me wondering... should we forget?

i distinctly remember watching a television program wherein it said that events in your life would occur over and over again until you learn its lesson. and i have come to conclude that this is true.

so i was thinking, maybe it's not good to forget. maybe it's better to remember and just learn.

no barriers at all

today is cutover day.

in spite of the problems i have encountered this morning(one was due to my stupidity --- i am still kicking myself because of it), i still feel lucky to be part of the barrier reef project. probably because i've had really good working relations with my teammates.

martina is probably the best partner a new person like me (or any other person for that matter) would like to have. she's really helped me a lot through the project and i've never seen her lose her temper at me though i have my share of misses. beyond work, i've had a lot of conversations with martina... we just don't seem to run out of topics to talk about. siobhan, antoniette and jannet are just really great people who never seems to run out of smiles for you. and dennis! dennis seems quiet and aloof when you see him at the office... just a guy minding his own business. but wait until you hear his stories --- you will just roll over with laughter!

aside from the australia team that i have come to dearly love (mwah! mwah! mwah!), i would have to single out adam and guoliang. adam is our project leader who i eventually came to think of as a big brother. and guoliang is... well, i've always thought of guoliang as adam's partner in crime. and i believe a lot of people would think the same way if they see them together. i've had a lot of fun being around them whether it's work or non-work related. i spent my weekend with them at the city going through the royal botanical gardens, st. mary's cathedral (which i think is the most beautiful church i've ever been to -- mom would've loved to see it), the sydney opera house and to all the other places our tired and aching feet took us.

i am just really thankful of all the nice things my project has given me. more than a sense of fulfillment when it comes to work, i have gained a million great memories being with really beautiful people. :)

hooray to you!

a big cheer to irish for her blog. i've been visiting it daily and reading her entries (as i do with my other friends' blogs) and i have to say she's doing a great job. a laugh to you, rish, for doubting your ability to write down your thoughts (i know you never had a hard time saying them).

so congrats again and welcome to the blog world! :)

scared shitless

project cutover happens on monday. and being my first, i am scared. really. i fear there is something i missed doing and i will be messing up months of work.

so now i am still in the office... waiting for my transports to be placed in the production box. hopefully, everything will be in order by monday. please... please... please...

greek god(dess)

i was looking through other blogs and found a link to a test. and since i've always been interested with these kinds of tests (i believe you can find out more of who you are if you answer them honestly), i took this as well. and here is my result:



hmmm... morpheus. where are trinity and neo? :)

personal battle

i was listening to stevie wonder's overjoyed and a line of the song struck me.

...i've gone much too far for you now to say
that i've got to throw my castle away...

so when do you give up and when do you keep holding on?

most of the time, when i tell my friends that i am giving up, i actually don't. i keep a spark alive in me hoping that by some chance i have a reason to believe. this makes me relate much to a line of another song:

when all faith is gone, i fight myself to carry on

and so i keep on fighting...

girl friends

for the past few days, my mailbox has been full of messages from my college barkada. not that i am complaining. receiving news from them is something i have always loved. i even think it's funny sometimes when we are so engrossed in replying to each other's mail that the subject of our emails don't match its contents anymore.

there are times when i just miss our college days --- when we saw each other every day, hang out in the org tambayan, and do the ordinary stuff girl friends do. we seldom have time to see each other nowadays. jent is in new zealand, jenp is in japan, ginia and raf are both in the u.s. and i am here in australia. myn, grette, sheryl and rona are all in the philippines. but even when i was back home, we rarely see each other. we usually get together when someone comes home after a long stay abroad. (which, you could imagine, comes once in a blue moon). however, when that happens, we can turn any serene area into a boisterous and laughter-filled one. :)

i also have a group of girl friends from my previous company. no offense to the guys. we seldom see each other since jo and rish are both in japan. eden stays in alabang while rose, martha and mommy bhing are all in the makati office. we often talk via IM, though. they know all the good and bad stuff that come and go in my life. maybe that's why i never felt that i completely left. my mom even said that though i am already in a new company, my "umbilical cord" is still tied with theirs. :) i am now looking forward to a coffee session with them when i get back.

and my greatest group of girl friends? my sisters and my mom. again, no offense to my dad and my only brother who i both love very much.

i seldom see karla who does night shift at work. and ate has already left home since she has a family of her own. faye is busy with school and mom with her clinic. but every time i get a chance to talk to them, even if they are just mundane topics, it just feels good. i relish the times we just sit around or lie cramped together in one bed and talk about everything that pops into our heads. :)

i love my girl friends. :)

broken vow

as most of you already know, i am now a fan of meteor garden (together with 60 million others). i even brought the vcd's of meteor garden II with me to australia... together with a josh groban dvd.

i spent almost my whole sunday watching the dvd's. and if i could just absent myself from work today, i would've loved to finish the whole series last night.

one of my favorite things about the series is the song, "broken vow". it's one of the most heart-wrenching songs i've ever heard. i have to stop myself from crying every time. when i heard josh groban sing this song, it just blew me away.

i just love the song so much that i've decided to post the lyrics here as well:

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broken vow

tell me her name i want to know
the way he looks at where you go
i need to see his face i need to understand
why you and i came to an end

tell me again i want to hear
who broke my faith in all these years
who lays with you at night while i'm here all alone
remembering when i was your own

i'll let you go, i'll let you fly
why do i keep on asking why
i'll let you go now that i've found
a way to keep somehow more than a broken vow

tell me the words i never said
show me the tears you never shed
give me the touch, the one you promised to be mine
or has it vanished for all time?

i close my eyes
and dream of you and i and then i realize
there's more to love than only bitterness and lies
i close my eyes

i'd give away my soul to hold you once again
and never let those moments end

i'll let you go, i'll let you fly
now that i know, i'm asking why
i'll let you go now that i found
a way to keep somehow more than a broken vow

where's the good in goodbye?

will be leaving for australia again tomorrow. but somehow, i don't want to leave.

songs from the heart

tito ading bought a videoke microphone and my family just started going through the songs in the list. karla just finished singing "a whole new world" and i remembered romer. (he sang this song during rumel's birthday). i have a list of songs that would remind me of friends and special people when i hear them. here are some of them:

donita - la isla bonita
irish - you're in love
martha - dancing queen
eden - i can
amil - staying alive
jenp - on the wings of love
mayel - kokomo
reno - mickey
faye - at your best

i could go on and on with the list...

clueless

sometimes i let myself get carried away i forget about some things. just like today. i was talking to a friend through our office IM and was thoroughly enjoying myself until he said, "kat, back to work na tayo".

how embarrassing!

top five

i am coming down with a cold so i thought of listing five things i am thankful for that happened to me last week... just to brighten up my day.

1. lunch out and watching legally blonde 2 with tsongers
2. finishing all my project issues before anyone could complain about it for too long
3. having a cellphone again and receiving text messages from friends
4. jose asking me if i wanted to take masters with him (really touched)
5. finishing the season 1 of meteor garden and the series having a happy ending (love happy endings!)

i know, some of these things may be trivial to some but they gave me a reason to smile. we have to be thankful for both the big and small things in our life, right? :)

senseless

sometimes i think that life is a prankster. there have been instances that i finally decide to do something and then something happens that make me do another thing. am i making any sense? sometimes life does that to me, too.

meteorite

my mind is in a daze due to lack of sleep. the reason? i've spent the last three nights watching my sister's vcds of meteor garden until around 2 am. in spite of some bad translations in the subtitles and largely due to the cheesy storyline (i'm a self-confessed hopeless romantic)... yes, folks, i am hooked. :)

christmas

it's the start of the -ber months. this just means one thing... christmas is coming! :)

christmas has always been my favorite season. when i was a kid, i would always wait for our gifts from santa to appear underneath our christmas tree. call me stupid, but i really believed in santa claus... until i was around 18. i had the "shocking" revelation when we were shopping one day for christmas gifts and my dad saw this toy for my kid brother. and mom asked, sa atin ba manggagaling ito o kay santa?

but that incident never really took the magic out of christmas for me. i enjoy thinking of gifts for people who are special to me. however, whether i end up really giving gifts is a completely different story. hehehe! and for the past years, i have been looking forward to more christmas events --- the gels christmas dinner, the adtx billiards and bowling tournaments (which, i would not be a part of this year... huhuhu!), the tsongers exchange gift and of course, our family christmas reunion. i can't wait!

by the way, i still believe in santa. :)