i have a crush

no, i am not going to divulge his name. what this is, it does not fit my normal definition of a crush. hindi nga ako kinikilig, e. i don't even think of him that often. in fact, i hardly think of him at all. and when i do think of him, i don't have this bursting emotion inside but just a warm and fuzzy feeling. he's got above average looks, he's smart and funny, he's kind and caring. do you know someone who is just downright good? he's one of those.

we're somewhere in between friends and acquaintances so we aren't that close but there is a sense of familiarity there. we joke around. we even have lunch together sometimes.

so why is he different from the others? why is it that he's worth a blog entry? i don't know.

there were just some instances recently that had me smiling because of him. and it's a nice thing, being able to smile because you thought of someone.

yes, i admit, it would've been nice if he was indeed my full-fledged crush with me having this goofy smile on my face all day and just feeling like i'm ready to burst. on the other hand, i will pity my friends who will have to endure me telling them every little detail of every minute encounter that we have. i would've wanted that since it's been a while since i've had that feeling. but i think i'd rather have this for now. a quiet admiration for him.

his girlfriend is one lucky girl. :)